When Delulu Is No Longer the Solulu

Do you guys know what’s worse than being deceived by people? Yes, you guessed right. Self-deceit.

I don’t mean the kind of self-deceit where you actually know what you are doing but them nosy people go “You’re deceiving yourself not me”. But in the real sense of it, you know your truth and you’ve accepted it, but for some reason, they refuse to accept it. 🙄

I’m talking about actual self-deceit that you are sometimes aware of. Being “delulu” but the harmful kind of delulu.

I sometimes have an argument in my head about which is better, ignorance or knowledge. Honestly, I’m still a bit confused, but I sometimes lean towards ignorance, and I will tell you why.

Most times, I mean like eighty per cent of the time when I do or I’m doing something I shouldn’t be doing, I do it with the knowledge that I’m not supposed to do it or be doing it. The feeling is so awful because there is a certain type of guilt that rushes in. 

Let’s say I know I should read my bible but I don't read it and I'm fully aware that the feeling of not wanting to read it is the work of flesh. Also, I know I should not yield to the flesh, but with this information still, I don’t read it.

Now opposed to this, let’s say I don’t read my bible, but I’m not aware of the danger not reading it poses, and the reason why I don’t feel like reading it. The guilt I will feel is less, if I will feel any at all. That's where the phrase "ignorance is bliss" comes in.

Unfortunately, I don’t have a resolution for this particular issue, but if you do have, maybe a mindset that can counter it or something, please share in the comment section.

On the knowledge and ignorance discussion. Knowledge can be so overwhelming. In the sense of you know so much, so you expect much, but you’ll be disappointed because the much you expect is not what you’ll get. 

However, as law students, we are taught that ignorantia juris non excusat, that is ignorance of the law is not an excuse. Regardless of your knowledge level, you’ll still be held accountable. In that case, it is very beneficial to be knowledgeable because your ignorance is not a valid excuse.

Well, as I was saying, self-deceit sucks, but unlike being fully aware when you are deceiving yourself, I’ve met people who deceive themselves, but for some reason, refuse to accept that they are deceiving themselves. This is even more pitiable, so I guess knowledge wins this round again. 

They seem to have lost so much touch with reality, and it’s saddening. I think some of them fail to realise that because you refuse to acknowledge a truth/fact does not stop it from being the truth.

This could pass as a casual blog post, but this is a desperate call for self-evaluation. A very desperate call 🤲

Pause and check for a minute if you are living life in all honesty or if you’ve been deceiving yourself in some sort of way. And if you are aware that you are living in self-deceit, change! Change today 🧎🏽‍♀️

Shalom! 🕊️
*Dramatic and soulful exit*
Oh yeah, see you at the next read.
❤️ & 💡